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what's freedom according to you?

every people is dreaming about having a freedom. children, teenagers, adults, me, and you! but, each people has their own view about what freedom is. for me, a freedom is a heart's feeling when I'm getting happiness; soul; free expressing mind, loving my life, and do everything I love wholeheartedly. when I do what I love, when I get my soul during my activity, when I feel this is my real life, that's what I call my freedom. honestly (sorry for saying this), I feel like that I'm an insurgent right now. everything that makes me feel like in a jail, I hate it! even my parents' suggestions and commands such as to study hard etc., I can say "NO" to them! and I only do what my mind and heart say "YES, THAT'S THE TRUE ONE" >but, when I rejected my parents' suggestions and commands, at that time I'm trying not to drop my tears. I still have a sensitive heart and guilty feeling when I hurt my parents' feeling with m

THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF GOD’S MIRACLE

HI BLOGGERS!! Well, thanks for keep in touch with me and now it’s time for blogging, yeaaahhh!! Have you ever felt someday God is not fair with you, that God didn’t make your dreams come true? or have you ever felt so disappointed with all you got and desperate with your life? but, besides that worst things, have you ever thought about God’s miracle? that what you get now, good or bad things, God always gives the answers- call it miracles, in the right time that we have to search. Why God puts me in this case? Well, I’m thinking about that right now. I used to be so sad, desperate, and angry with my self. Something like “What a stupid girl I am!” or “How could it be? So, it’s just wasting time of my striving so far?” even “Having high dreams is just a bullshit!” and the other dirty words of mocking my self even a little bit angry to My God. (oh, I’m so guilty) When I had to face that I was not accepted as a college student of Gadjah Mada University- indeed I w